Then what is it like? (1182 hits)
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Submitted by Lojope <lojope.at.juno.com> (View user info) at 2005-05-30 12:57:24 EDT
There was a moment that morning, when I just wanted to crawl into your tent and find my way into your arms. The morning air was cold, the rain chilled the back of my neck, and those two stupid kids had decided that me getting out to go to the bathroom was the green light for them to start fucking in my tent again. The misery of being cold and having nowhere to go almost won and I stepped closer to the place where I knew your warmth was laying, just waiting for me to fall into it and be comforted.
Instead I climbed into the car and wrapped myself in your coat until you woke up.
That's where you found me a few hours later.
You smiled and without a word boiled some water. Tea for you, coffee for me. No creamer because you don't drink milk. I'm learning to live without it.
Only one mug between us and you let me have it first. I drank the hot liquid too fast and burned my tongue so you could have your tea as quickly as possible in payment for your kindness.
Once the caffeine and nicotine kicked in, you made conversation. You know better than to try before that. You gave me my first laugh of the day, I gave you your first blush.
You offered a walk in the rain and I accepted, the droplets hitting my neck no longer carrying the same chill they had before.
We got to the lake and I closed my eyes, listening to the music the rain made as it hit the water's surface. You started to speak, but I told you to just listen. We stood there under the tree, just listening. I could feel your eyes on my face. I know that smile you have when you watch me. It it the same one I feel when I look at you.
Without meaning it to, I felt my hand reach out for yours. It was drawn there, it felt natural. I quickly shoved it back in my pocket before it touched you. You didn't notice, at least I think you didn't. I hope you didn't.
We talked and laughed on the way back to the tents. Those stupid kids had driven to town to go to a diner. We exchanged snobbish scoffs and muttered something about missing the point of camping.
Together, we took down the tents alone. I stopped for another cigarette and you laughed at me. Something about looking like a drowned rat with a soggy smoke hanging out of my mouth. You said you wish I'd let you take a picture. I told you I'd kill you, which you already knew.
The whole drive home, and the whole week following, I wondered about us. What are we? How can this feel so much like something it's not? What if that's what it is and I just don't know it?
You know what I am thinking when I don't say a word.
I know that you are frusterated when you bite your lip.
You always cross your arm over me just slightly, subtly protective, when we are in a crowd.
I always remind you with a gentle look when you're being cranky.
You made me a sandwich.
I made your tea.
The way you called your apartment "our place" even though the one time I slept there, we did not even share a room.
The way everything always feels like "us" and "we" even though no such unit has ever existed.
The intimacy we share without ever having kissed.
The way everything about us screams there is something more, but somehow it's always just "not like that."
If it's not like that, then what is it like?
User Reviews
Submitted by Soley_Trinity (user info) at 2005-07-18 09:56:33 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-07-18 09:51:19 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
y helo thar
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2005-07-18 09:38:49 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
I got a new apartment, one without the internet hooked up yet. Sorry. I miss you too.
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-07-12 07:03:37 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
WHERE DID YOU GO?
DID YOU GET AN ALTER ACCOUNT, OR WORSE, DID YOU GET A LIFE?
Submitted by apollo88 (user info) at 2005-06-22 17:14:54 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2005-05-30 18:10:35 (#)
Ranking: 1
What kind of man drinks tea?
+1 simply because I'm relatively certain that you'd yank on my pecker. """
all men drink tea in enland.
hot tea.
with milk in.
i liked this lojope.
Submitted by wardy (user info) at 2005-06-03 12:27:58 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Mr-Boo (user info) at 2005-05-30 13:05:35 (#)
Ranking: 2
Hey, I popped a tent too. Wanna go camping?
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+2 because of this review... and shlongy's too..
Submitted by Jungle_Jimanee (user info) at 2005-06-03 12:06:27 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2005-05-30 18:10:35 (#)
Ranking: 1
What kind of man drinks tea?
+1 simply because I'm relatively certain that you'd yank on my pecker.
A real man you fool.
Liked the story.
Submitted by c1ndy (user info) at 2005-06-03 11:45:20 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
nice
Submitted by rad1101 (user info) at 2005-06-03 11:29:38 EDT (#)
Ranking: -2
this isn't written very well.
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2005-05-31 07:36:07 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
Aw. Heh, thanks. That was a cute review.
Submitted by WhoLetYouIn (user info) at 2005-05-30 22:25:29 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You know, I honestly thought this was gonna be weird...and sappy...and it was but in a great way.
+2
Submitted by Durae (user info) at 2005-05-30 21:57:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
You're not going to get a straight answer out of him, so just dive in head first. It's what you always do anyway.
Submitted by JML (user info) at 2005-05-30 20:13:17 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2005-05-30 20:07:22 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
I assume, that the current acronym for that is "homo", yes?
Submitted by lojope (user info) at 2005-05-30 19:48:46 EDT (#)
Ranking: 0
The cute hippy-ish outdoorsey kind of man.
Submitted by Shlongy (user info) at 2005-05-30 18:10:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 1
What kind of man drinks tea?
+1 simply because I'm relatively certain that you'd yank on my pecker.
Submitted by YELLOW-MAN (user info) at 2005-05-30 17:46:09 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
No Comment
Submitted by JohnGalt (user info) at 2005-05-30 13:32:36 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Hmm...sleeping in the tent with your boss. Two raises in one.
Submitted by Mr-Boo (user info) at 2005-05-30 13:05:35 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Hey, I popped a tent too. Wanna go camping?
Submitted by jgreening (user info) at 2005-05-30 13:04:56 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Between you and Circe, I'm gonna cry today, damnit...
Submitted by peckerhead (user info) at 2005-05-30 13:02:59 EDT (#)
Ranking: 2
Sometimes it's hard to know what is going on in a relationship -- at least that's what I have found. I liked this. Nice tent too.